Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Keystone Cops

Say what you will about George W. Bush, but that poor bastard walked into some of this nations worst problems a president could have to deal with. From Jump Street, he was hammered with bigger problems every minute. More than I can even imagine having to deal with. Have you seen pictures of him at the beginning of his tenure and then at the end? He appears far more aged than the calendar will attest.

The patriot act is unfair, illegal and immoral you say?
When was the last attack on American soil? An American military base or entity?

Hasan, the shooter at Fort hood, was an American soldier of the Muslim faith. He had sent e-mails last year and this year to a radical Muslim cleric in Yemen, (FREEKIN YEMEN !!!!!!) U.S. officials have said. Intelligence agencies discovered the messages, but joint terrorism task forces determined they did not warrant further action.
The New York Times quoted an unidentified congressional official on Wednesday as saying the messages "were not overtly aggressive," but "should have raised flags."

Some will argue he was not a “terrorist’. That he acted alone and not a as a part of a larger organized entity. I disagree. I believe his actions, whether directed or otherwise affected by others were intended to cause maximum damage and fear. Clearly an act of terror and an act of war. He is, as defined by his actions, a radical Muslim fanatic. And terrorist.

He should have been noticed and detained long ago. We are still in Iraq and Afghanistan because too few people died on 9-11-01. (Think pearl) We as a society, as a nation, want to forget the horror from that day. We too easily want to forget,,,want to forgive. We need to stay pissed off. (Think pearl) See the pics and video again. Do you see those peeple JUMPING out of the window 100 floors up? (Think pearl) Did you see the cops and firefighters running INTO the FIRE to rescue those who needed rescue?
We need to get mad enough and stay mad enough to finish the job.

Although things have calmed somewhat, great Britain continues to experience acts of terrorism on public targets at a more frequent rate than the U.S. This also true for Japan and Russia.

Know that if we don’t go there and get those animals, those animals will come here. Hasan was just one guy, and he only killed 13 people. The patriot act and eaves-dropping caught his communiqués. Discretion gave him a pass. <> Again, the failure was judgment.. someone became complacent. It’s ok. He’s ok. We have to be tolerant remember? He has the right. Right?
I have no more room for fanatic Muslims than I do for fanatic Christians. Witnessed knocking on my front door when I’m eating a baby backs playing Late September Dogs…


Racial profiling? Fuk you. Its not profiling. I don’t care if you think it’s fair. It’s not profiling when a lion picks out the lame wildebeest out of the pack. He sticks out because he is different. He draws that attention unto himself. THEN he whines that he is a victim. Thank God we wont have to hear him bleat for long. Geez.
Hasan should have been “gathered” up sometime ago. Somebody got too worried about hurting his feelings or offending his right to be Muslim. 12 people died for it.


The Salahi’s got past all the security “machine” processes and socially engineered their way past what is supposed to be the tightest security screening in the free world. One little James Bond / Batman cyanide scratching poison ring and they could taken out the pres, vice pres and Benson.

I hope staff has all had their swine flu vaccinations or we could still be at risk as a nation.

The damage these goonies have done to the credibility of our governments security capabilities is unmeasurable. How many corn fed hillbillies will now be inspired to at least TRY to sneak a picture with the pres’? Whats next? Crop circles in the WH lawn?

Below is a portion of a publication form CNN about these dorks, and it seems to mirror my views …
Here:
http://www.cnn.com/2009/OPINION/11/28/rollins.party.crashers.whitehouse/index.html?iref=allsearch
Prosecute the White House gate-crashers
By Ed Rollins, CNN Senior Political Contributor
cnnAuthor = "By Ed Rollins, CNN Senior Political Contributor";

November 29, 2009 9:28 a.m. EST

Editor's note: Ed Rollins, a senior political contributor for CNN, is senior presidential fellow at the Kalikow Center for the Study of the American Presidency at Hofstra University. He was White House political director for President Reagan and chairman of the National Republican Congressional Committee.

New York (CNN) -- The gate crashers Michaele and Tareq Salahi want to be famous as stars of reality television. I am all for that. Give them a reality television series and call it "Trial and Jailtime" in the D.C. criminal justice system. This despicable, desperate, duplicitous couple disgraced the Secret Service and embarrassed the president in his home.

They totally overshadowed the president's meeting with Indian Prime Minister Manmohan Singh, the leader of an important ally. The incident made the Obamas' first state dinner, honoring the prime minister and his wife, Gursharan Kaur, fodder for comedians -- and it certainly raises security concerns for other world leaders visiting at later dates.

The gate-crashers need to be held accountable and not glorified.

Unless they have some excuse we haven't heard yet, the Salahis deserve to be charged with criminal trespassing and lying to federal officers for starters. Yes, they dressed for the occasion, but the Salahis are no different, and shouldn't be regarded any differently, than a nut case who jumps over the White House fence and tries to run in the front door. The only difference is that the fence-jumper would be shot ten feet from his entrance point.


Now this stupid post is a big fat fake. I copy/pasted a fat portion of the content which embarrasses me muchly. I would so prefer that my blog was just My Blog. I miss the days when my brain put words together better… But it helps make my point and also reassures me that I am not a raving ranting lunar-tic as I am occasionally accused.

Ed later writes this:
“So I have to tell you I am appalled at the comments by the Secret Service spokesman who was described as saying it hadn't been determined whether party-crashing is technically illegal. He went on to say he didn't believe the Salahis posed a security risk. Spin control is not needed now. Responsibility is the key word.”

They may have not intended a direct immediate risk, but they have left this cigarette ember quietly smoking in recesses we are not yet aware. But know that somewhere, there is a small orange glimmer, awaiting a puff of air to give volume to his voice and be heard by the world.
Where will he be when he speaks? Where will you be?

One of the most famous quotes accredited Benjamin Franklin is: "Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety."

Get al cliché if u wish, but I feel fairly safe here on American soil. Well, I did.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

sinking one at the buzzer...

Asking my oldest yesterday how her sisters game went returned this freekin answer...

"She sank the winning basket (again) at the buzzer"...in a half "oh btw..." and "can u freekin believe it..." manner...

I've been in really bad shape for awhile and simply unable to attend her basketball games with few exceptions this year. I am grateful to her Mother for helping me attend the few games I was able to make it.

Miranda often attends her games in whole or part. Taking snacks and drink for Mariah and her team-mates..and a much needed ride home.

Mariah ~! The one I was so afraid was going to remain petite and soft spoken to her own detriment..has found her voice and is clearly speaking up.

She is still the smallest in stature on her 8th grade basketball team, but she is in mix, bumping and chesting the biggest girls out there... taking fouls and drawing them. Taking the ball away from giants and carrying it to the end of the court. freekin' aye gf ~!!
Watching her run from end to end on the court and push those girls oughtta the way is just great.

When I asked Mariah about it..why the hell she didn't tell me about it when she got home...She replied.."It's no big deal Dad"... Sheesh.. No big deal. - Runt.

I have no idea where she found any athletic ability. Surely not from me..or her mother.
I'm just happy she is pursuing something she has interest in...on her own. Not just mimicking the interests of mine or moms or whatever...

She's gonna be ok..

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

nearing...

Continuing difficult days here cause me concern.

My hands are numb in ways that that have not been in the past..

My head hurts. Adjustments in meds isn't helping. Isn't affecting.

The continued albeit gradual progression of symptoms despite new treatment makes me think there is new growth yet to be proven by MRI. The next one isn't scheduled until January sometime but at this rate of degradation, I will see the inside of a hospital somewhere before that.

Custody battles continue to loom on the horizon.. What a huge hassle.
There are better ways for all of us to deal with the stresses an difficulties we face in this. Only time will tell if we get our shit together in time. Its a messy gig either way.

I dont know how to make this better for my kids. I struggle to balance their care and mine.

This is certainly bigger than me...So often I have overcome barriers, challenges. Rather thot I was pretty rugged. Not this time. I'm beat. OK?


I get it. I am humbled. Can it all stop now?

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Turkey Day....

Just a quick note about today....

Successfully steered out of a pain episode tonight. If I hadn't pulled it off I would have wound up in E.R. The right drugs the right way and ice therapy and mentally chasing the pain away. I know, sounds crazy to some people but if have chronic pain you probly know of what I speak.

I had several offers to come to dinner from friends and family today and the days leading up to now...

Some were fairly unexpected... some from ex-inlaws etc... wow.

Two people brought Thanksgiving Dinner to me as well..tiramasu cheesecake~! pumpkin pie - apple pie - ham - stuffing - more stuffing - ... ohh !!!! I'M STUFFED.
I have more damn food here than I can eat by my self inna week~!

My kids come home from their T-Day visit with their Mom and family Saturday night so I'm alone 'till then. I was nervous about it for a bit, but I'm gettin' better.

I have been bitchy with my kids lately.. letting my condition get the better of me. Being in pain, unable to do things - - walk or bathe very well...it gets to me after awhile.
The girls dont understand. Hell, I dont know if I understand...

Anyway..Plenty to be thankful for today..cant complain...
I hope all your days were as good as mine.
I had pumpkin pie and apple pie..and theres still more pumkin pie and tiramasu cheesecake ~!

Rest well... There are plenty of leftovers to tend to tomorrow... Turkey pot pie usually does well here...Mariah always looks foward to turkey bacon cheddar sandwhiches.

I am both content and uncomfortable...
Are you?





Saturday, November 21, 2009

seemingly...

After seemingly endless days of being just miserable, I woke today feeling well.

My body, although still numb and mostly unresponsive to my desires to function, isn't screaming at me at every thought of movement.

I can eat, I can see. Today, so far, is looking good.
I thot about trying to make pancakes and bacon for breakfast for everyone here, a surprise breakfast. I didn't get far. I got bacon cooking in the oven in a skillet slow and easy, the only way I can do it now (it's better that way anyway). Miranda helped me pull it out but it was cool to have it ready for her to have breakfast..she's running late for work.

The others are still sleeping 'cuz they're bums. I've been up for hours. I get bored, there is only so much freekin' daytime t.v. one person can stand. I get bored and I wanna eat. The steroids compound this problem.

Today promises more holiday theme baking... I look forward to the wafting perfume of melting chocolate and sugar from my meager kitchen.

Holiday treats + steroids + insane boredom = too much Cliff.


More later...

Thursday, November 12, 2009

happy place...

I amtry trying to find my happy place...

I SOO would like to write something balanced... blogs have been blechy lately...

Christmas season is here again which I love because its an excuse to eat junk food comfort food all damn day.

Muffins and cookies and candies (all preferably homemade) fudge and Martha Washingtons and an awesome pumpkin chocolate orange muffin thing from my ex that is to DIE for...

Crockpots simmering with scratch soups and pastas and thick rich cocoa (snchaaps helps the kids sleep ssshhh ~!)

Oh yeah,, Twisted Sister doing all the Christmas classics in the background is just right....

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

tumor treatment saga continues...

Chemo, day two

Wrote blog yesterday, forgot to post it until today… what a bum huh?
Writing again today, hopefully it will get finished and posted today as well…

Wanna try taking chemo a little earlier in the day today… it’s a process.. takes hours to do right and pain episodes are becoming more frequent and difficult to manage so I am irritable.

They aren’t kiddin’ when they say Temodar causes constipation…Something I’m sure everyone is glad I am sharing… geez.. Day two already. Damn.

An hour and a half after the dose my tummy is shaky. Ick… But I am still hungry as hell.. dangit.

There is no one to talk to about prognosis, more specifically my prognosis (expectations).
No one that doesn’t freak when the topic of end-of –life or right-to-die topics come up.

I simply wont live like this.. I refuse. I refuse to accept the lower and lower quality of life simply because it’s gradual in its declination. Like the damn frog in a pot of water. Everyday becomes “o.k.” because “it’s not as bad as it could be”, or because it’s “only a little worse than yesterday”.